Zodiac-CPS

UGH!

This is not how I wanted my first school semester to be like.

Ok, picking up from my last entry, I said that I wasn't going to tell you the surprise...well here it is. My friend said that she couldn't take me and my other friends to AUSA because of financial problems...

...so I decided that my mom and I could take them.

I had it all planned out and everything was going to go perfectly and we would all have fun...but everything changed when school started.

We all went back on Tuesday, rumor had it that our school was hosting auditions for a musical, but I'll talk about that later.

I didn't have the greatest Sophomore year and I promised myself things would change. Good grades, no drama and no fighting at home.

By the next day, I was worried, because I had show choir this year, it takes up a lot of my time and I didn't want it to get in the way of AUSA. Luckily however, my teacher had not scheduled anything on that weekend. Yay!

(Here's where that rumor thing I mentioned earlier comes back) At the end of the day, it was announced that our school would be doing Disney's Beauty and the Beast. I thought to myself, Awesome! I should definitely sign up for that.

Things went down hill from the time I got home. I told my mom that there was nothing scheduled on the weekend of the anime con and then I told her that my school would be doing Disney's Beauty and the Beast. Though I told her all this great news, she still wanted to see my show choir schedule. She new that the convention was on Nov 18th through the 20th. When she looked at the schedule...so was Beauty and the Beast.

So now I had to come down with an extremely hard decision...Anime USA or Beauty and the Beast?

On one hand AUSA:

I had planned on going to this for months
I had never gone to a con with my three friends
A lot of voice actors I wanted to meet were going to be there
From what I heard, Anime USA is amazing!
This was an extension to my friends Bday present (the one with financial problems)
It was during my Bday
And more...

On the other hand Beauty and the Beast:

I love the play and movie
I had a chance at getting a major part (aiming for the Beast)
It cost no money
I went to my high school for this kind of thing
It looks good on a college application
And more...

With this on my shoulders I had many fights with my mom. To me it seemed like all she wanted me to do was the play regardless of my commitment on going to the convention, but that wasn't true.

In the end, my mom came to a decision that if my friends got an absolute, definite, 100% sure agreement on going to the convention, because for some reason my mom has the impression that they weren't that excited on going and was afraid that they would say yes and bail out at the last minute.

By the end of the weekend, all my friends gave my mom and I their word from them and their parents that they would attend AUSA.

I thought everything was going great. I was going to AUSA with my friends even though I was missing the play, but I thought that wasn't a big deal. Everything was fine until this afternoon.

At this point I am addressing the three friends I let down

Today my mom came home acting very off, I shouldn't have asked her what was wrong, She was upset that I didn't take the option of the play.

My mom's points:

There won't be another chance like this play
She loathes northern Virginia (where the con is) due to the fact that she goes there every day for work
She doesn't understand my whole anime "fad" (I'd rather we go with a parent who at least understands it a little)
She would be all alone in the hotel
She loves Beauty and the Beast
There are other anime cons to go to
Etc...

I'm not trying to make my mom seem like the bad guy here but she said she would go out of her way just to make me happy. She basically said that her thoughts didn't matter and that she is just a chauffeur to me and my friends.

I felt awful.

And a lot of my mom's points make sense.

If you are one of my three friends who I promised a fun weekend to, I'm sorry to post that I'm canceling our trip and signing up for my school's play

I know you probably won't forgive me, but all I can say is that from the very depths of my heart, I'm sorry.

So...yeah...

The main reason I'm writing this was because I don't want my journal to be me ranting and bitching about my problems so...here's summer.

Ok so it started off with a BANG!!!

I went to AMA and had an amazing time with all my friends (you know who you are. your awesome)

There was a lot of cool things to do there. I even got to meet Todd Habberkorn X3. He even said PASTA!!!! for me.

The whole time I was there I spent all my money on things to get my friends. I swear I only bought 3 things for me. A T-shirt and two buttons and I had to borrow money for the buttons. I'm so generous it's unhealthy.

Sadly i couldn't get everything my friends asked for (I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON!!!!) but I hope they will like the substitutes.

After that, my mom signed me up for a stupid one week over night camp. Ugh. She wanted me to get out more, hello! I'm an indoor person.
Thankfully I survived.

Tomorrow I get my wisdom teeth taken out so I'll be all 'David After Dentist'

Right now I'm focusing on my adaptation story and reading.

Also I have to plan all the stuff I have to get my summer B-day friends. I'm even preparing stuff for friends whose B-day starting from August to next summer. Yeah I know I' thinking way to far ahead but I love giving and for someone who has a nag for things like that I should plan ahead.  

Anything to see my friends smile.

On last thing, AUSA will be in November and my friend said that I could go with her group. It will be my first con with these guys. Sadly though, she said that we may not go due to her mom's financial problems.

At first I was sad but then something hit me.

I have a plan that can save the trip...

but I ain't gonna tell ya...

...yet. ;3

UPDATE!!!!!

WARNING: This journal is just me ranting about my problems and has a lot of cursing so if you are sensitive to language (or just don't give a sh*t about my feelings which is understandable) than do not read.


I FUCKING HATE MY OLDER SIBLINGS


Mistake #1: Kristen (oldest):

1. She gives vegans a bad name. For those of you who don't know vegan (vee-gan)- a person who chooses to not eat or where anything that comes from an animal. like a vegetarian x1000. She will look down on you and not even knowledge you if you eat meat and will keep annoying you on how bad it is and how being a vegan is better in every way.
2. Shallow. The only way you could ever be her friend is if you are a vegan (she doesn't even like vegetarians), love punk rock, are a feminist and you have to listen to her no matter what.
3. Friends. Her friends are nice, I like them, but some of them fined her annoying and they only tell me.
4. Her out look on life: She thinks that anyone who doesn't want to hear what she says is ignorant. She says that ignorant has a different unoffensive meaning to it. She's calling you stupid.
5. Disrespect: She is so independent (not saying being independent is bad, but too much of it is) that she feels like she doesn't have to care what her elders say to her. My dad wants nothing to do with her and she disrespected my mom one time and so I said, "Kristen, that's really disrespectful." She replies, "I don't care."
6. Calling her a bitch is like calling a black guy the "N" word.
7. She will never see me as an individual. All she sees is a six year old having a tantrum. I even told her all of this and she said, "I don't have a reason to apologize to you."
8. Everything is Kristen Kristen Kristen.
9. Past experiences: She always treated me like a baby ever since I was a kid. She took my iPod (which was given to me by my grandmother out of surprise) promising me to download all my songs, kept it for a year and when she brought it back, the package wasn't even open. She eventually started to download but she only downloaded songs she liked and when I asked her to download my songs, she said "I don't want them on my library." When she came down for Christmas, she wanted to buy me a late Bday gift but when we went out, she took me to all the stores she shopped at. I wanted to go to Hot Topic, "Hot Topic is cheesy and stupid." I asked if we could go to Barnes and Noble, "You should buy used books. Their cheaper and better for the environment."
10. I can't talk to her about my feelings at all. Everything is logic. Like a freaking robot

Kristen= Vegan smart ass bitch

Mistake #2: Bryan (2nd oldest)

1. He gives hippies a bad name.
2. He smokes pot and has been caught doing it three times. My dad had to bail him out with a feign of over $1000
3. He can't hold a job or a girlfriend.
4. His band sucks. No seriously it's not a good band. All it is is techno music with repetitive melody, no lyrics and one song goes on for fifteen minutes.
5. He can turn a "Hey what's up." Into "OH MY GOD I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!" in one conversation.
6. When ever I talk to them, he always looking at me like I'm a retard or that I have down syndrome. Seriously, He will stop and stare at me like "Why the fuck is he talking to me." talk really slowly and loudly and laugh about it.
7. Show's worse disrespect than Kristen.
8. Is just a plain asshole.

Bryan= Douchey hippie degenerate

And now a few reasons why I hate them both together.

1. I've confronted them multiple times and they never understand why I'm so angry at them. Like it came out of thin air.
2. They haven't tried to make their relationship better with me.
3. All three of us have half siblings, Lexie and Connor who are 7 & 8 and Kristen and Bryan never speak to them. They will say one day, "Whose Kristen and Bryan? Zach is our only older brother." A reason Kristen and Bryan say that we never get along was of the age difference ( 10 and 8 years apart). Well I'm the same age difference with Lexie and Connor and we have had no problems and they love me.

As the title says, something that many doubt and believe impossible has happened

...

I GOT A GIRLFRIEND!!! FINALLY THE DAYS OF GAY JOKES ARE AT AN END!!!

Wait who am I kidding, there still gonna happen.

Besides that, as of last Friday, my friend Wendi and I decided to create a relationship. It's very early for us but I'm not sure if I truly love her but I'm hoping my feelings grow and I hope it does because I want a strong romantic relationship like the ones I read in books and like the ones I see everyday with my friends who show me that love can happen to anyone (you know who you are and thank you).
Wendi is very smart, funny and caring except there are a few little bumps in the road that can be fixed. For instance, Wendi is a christian but I'm ok with that but that means I can't curse around her and we can't make out yet. Also she doesn't know a lot about anime. Besides those little things (which we can work out) we really connect.  
I'm really glad I have a girlfriend now and a lot of my friends are happy for us but to be honest, we became boyfriend and girlfriend in one instant; one minute we are friends and the next we're together. She never had a boyfriend and I never had a girlfriend so we started like that. I'm still worried about If this was a good idea or not but I mainly think of the good that will come out of this and hey we agreed that if this doesn't work out in the end, then we will still be best friends.
So that's my story on how I got my first GF, so wish us luck and we'll see what happens.

OMG I just came back from an amazing weekend at Anime Mid Atlantic. All thanks to my awesome friend who cosplayed as Negi from Negima and me as Kiba from Wolfs Rain. When we got there, I immediately bought a Full Metal Alchemist poster and the next day I got the Vic Mignogna to sign it for her and as a surprise, after making her wait so long, I called her and gave the phone to vic, she freaked. Also while there, I fell in love with Soul Eater and now I want to watch Vampire Hunter D. We went to the venders, and I got so much stuff, Kon plushy, Kuroshitsugi pocket watch, a Death Note (to help with angst problems), a anime Harry Potter poster and gifts for my friends X3. Before we got our autographs from vic, he showed us Full Metal Fantasy. It's a fan movie where vic is watching FMA (duh) and he gets a package that is the state alchemist pocket watch, the next mourning he wakes up and he has Ed's hair then eventually gets the outfit. Later on he meets the voice actors in perfect cosplay of their characters. Envy, Scar, the homunculus that has Ed's arm and leg, Armstrong (he Sparkled), Lust, Gluttony, Greed, when he got the metal arm, Winery(probably spelled wrong) through a wrench at him, then all of his enemies showed up including the girl with the necklace (I don't know names) shows up, then Al ('cept he was a manikin with a voice) then vic started using Alchemy and I'm not saying the end. Sorry no spoilers. I made so many friends such as a Train(Black cat), Greed(FMA), Phoenix Right, a girl from Fruits Basket, a Hinata, and a lot of random, fun, hilarious people. Also they had a video game room and Phoenix Right and I played Left 4 Dead 2 for hours. Vic also mentioned that Vampire Knight will be coming to America in English in July, he's playing Zero and his twin brother (I don't know names). On Sunday mourning, Negi and I went to an Ouron High School Host Club, where a group of cosplayers dressed as the host club and we got to ask whatever we wanted. Sadly no Tamaki or Mori sempai but there was a Nekozawa sempai (I touched Belzenef). I did ask the twins, since they love playing pranks on Tamaki, I asked if they would ever put Honey and Kyoya sempai in the same room, wake them up early in the mourning and lock Tamaki in the room, they laughed so hard. I got a hug from Honey. There was a dance party on Saturday night but Negi's mom said we would be to young to go so we're waiting till I'm 16 and Negi is 17 (4 more months and @ Neco con). The first con curse didn't effect me except a small fire that wasn't a big deal. When we were about to leave, I really wanted to do the Haruhi Suzumia dance but whenever someone was doing it, I came in a the wrong time but then a perfect Haruhi cosplayer sai she new the dance and that she would do it with me. So that was the end of my perfect, favorite and 1st ANIME CON!